Well the last few days have been a super huge roller coaster of emotions thats for sure.
Super early follie scans and blood tests before work over the past few days have been intense and unfortunately this afternoon the nurses called to advise that even though I had a couple of follies at 18mm (they need 3, but were confident one more would grow) my progesterone level was too high, so if they are able to get any embies out of Tuesdays collection, they will need to be frozen and I have to wait one to two cycles before doing a Frozen Transfer as they want drugs completely out of my system.
Sooooo dissapointed !! now need to get my head around this new plan. I feel like maybe this is not meant to be and I am just pushing fate? I should stop with my son and be grateful as people have said. I know how lucky I am to have IVF work with him, but it doesnt stop me wanting to add to our family and give him a sibling/bestie for life.
I have zero support right now, I have never felt so alone that what I feel right now and wish it was different….I know I need to suck it up though and enjoy the time with my son, I dont want to waste that time feeling sorry for myself.
God what a whingy post! Oh well you were warned, my blog is pure therapy and typing it out is the only way to get this shit out my head. 😁
Tomorrow is a new day, the trigger injection is required at 10pm, I can barely stay up past 8:30pm! It looks so bloody complicated, i have 3-4 viles to mix and jab. God i hope i get it right!